Getting Anxious

There is less than two weeks until surgery.  I'm looking forward to it being over with but anxious about the surgery itself.

It's been two weeks since my last chemotherapy.  I still feel tired and nauseous at times, bu overall am doing very well.  After my big meltdown over the fingernails and toenails I still haven't actually lost any of them.  This is a wonderful thing!  There are some issues with sensitivity, lifting and sometimes they are painful but it's great to still have them.

I am still working at my job.  I have decided to give myself a few days off before surgery and my chemo doctor gave me a doctors note saying as much.  So after the 11th I will have four days to relax, rest up and try to prepare myself for surgery.  This could be good or bad.  I have actually had a few panic attacks thinking about surgery,  then I take a deep breath and go  back to living my life.

I am really glad that Kira is doing really well.  She knows what's going on and is good about helping.  She has even tucked me into bed.  She tells me she wants to be a nurse someday  and is getting some practice in. Our little dog takes care of me too.  I spend most mornings in bed, for some reason I feel better in the evenings, and Iris stays glued to my side.  She follows me faithfully around the house and sleeps at my feet on the bed.