So with everything that is happening I have hung in there and endured, today I had a bad day! I have lost my hair with a smile. I look forward to surgery in 8 weeks and accept that my nipples may die when they move them. I have 4 more weeks of Chemotherapy and what made me cry today is that I am starting to lose my fingernails and toenails. Stupid huh?
The toenails are no big deal. But I am still working retail and the thought of working with no fingernails is just too much for me. Arrgghh! I am still crying over fingernails and I haven't even lost them yet. They are starting to lift and I just can't deal with it. I feel so stupid! As Mike just pointed out I haven't lost them yet! Why am I crying? I think it's just the thought, or I just need an excuse to cry. Probably the latter.
My feet have been numb for 4 weeks. the doctor dialed back the Chemo by 10% and I am getting feeling back in my feet.
I had the consult with Surgerical Oncology and Plastic Surgeon. I actually am really excited that the surgeons say no mastectomy. Lumpectomy with a reduction and lift. So new perky boobies! I think the reason the nipple thing isn't that big a deal is I have been prepared to lose them since the beginning.
Putting my thoughts into words seems to help me work things through. Good Venting!
